I woke up this morning inexplicably happy to be sober! Just a big burst of happy endorphins and optimistic feelings. I had a big long hot shower and when I finally padded down to the kitchen in my slippers the sun was breaking through the clouds over the hillside across from our house. I grabbed my phone and took this photo…
Then (because this is how I roll) I put the photo on Twitter with the text “Beautiful hangover-free Friday morning!! So happy to be #sober” and then I put it on Facebook with the text “This time three years ago I was awash with wine and just 2 weeks away from hitting rock bottom and making a monumental life-changing decision (to remove all alcohol from my life). Today I am waking up hangover-free and very, very, very grateful to be sober.”
And now I’m putting the photo here on Living Sober! Mr D says it’s blurry but I don’t care. I like the raindrops on the clothes line and my grandmothers twirly-wirly wooden thing that I have hanging off the deck and I love, love, love the sunbeams shining down like rays of happiness and joy.
There’s a lot of talk in recovery circles about gratitude and how beneficial it is to practice daily. Sober bloggers often write random gratitude posts listing all the good things in their lives. Lots of people in my personal Facebook feed have recently been doing ’7-days of Gratitude’ lists (or something like that) and yesterday on Channel E! I heard Giselle Bundchen say ‘The secret to happiness is being grateful’.. (look here I just found an article online where she says the same thing….!) so if glorious supermodel Giselle says it’s so it must be so…
Being grateful for the good things we have makes us feel better.
I suppose it’s all about positive thinking. I’m feeling positive today! So here is a list of some of the reasons why I love being sober….
* I feel like I’ve crawled out of the cave I’ve been in all my adult life where I drank alcohol all the time and never developed any proper strategies to deal with emotional shit.. and now I’m standing tall and blinking in the sunlight waking up to myself and the world for the very first time..
* Whenever I get through a tough time and have to do some proper work to deal with things (e.g. listening to Tara rather than drinking crap-loads of wine) I feel incredibly better resolved about the thing I was dealing with..
* I have removed a ginormous area of concern from my life and now don’t have to waste any mental energy worrying or feeling guilty about my alcohol intake..
* I can rest easy that, if nothing else, I am bringing up my sons to have a full understanding of alcohol and all it’s affects, so that they can move into adulthood making their own choices with full awareness and knowledge..
* I have more money to spend on fresh flowers, in op-shops & at the deli (and I’ll never feel guilty about any of my purchases unless they are too sugary!)
* I sleep better, I cook better, I read better, I concentrate better, I sing better, I dance better, I listen better, I hug better, I clean better, I write better, I am better.
I am a better person sober than I was as a person boozing.
How about you?
Love, Mrs D xxx