Sober Story: Helen

Wednesday 13 Jun, 2018, 7:51am by Mrs D 5 comments

Today’s Sober Story comes from Helen who lives in Auckland.

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Mrs D: How long have you been in recovery?

Helen: I’ve been 29 years sober.

Mrs D: What can you tell us about your last days and months of drinking?

Helen: The last months before I got sober were terrifying and bewildering. I knew I was on a ‘ slippery slope’ and didn’t know how to stop. My drinking escapades had lost all fun and no longer worked as an escape mechanism. I had 2 small children I was almost 100 % responsible for and knew that I was increasingly unable to fulfill that job.

Mrs D: What was the final straw that led you to get sober?

Helen: I can’t actually recall a ‘final straw’ there were a number of them. My relationship with my long term partner was disintegrating. That upset me because I had wanted to make that work.I didn’t realise at the time that I had ‘taken a hostage’ not a partner.
I felt incredible loneliness I was to learn later that almost all alcoholics feel this. My doctor had prescribed tranquillisers and sleeping tablets for me which combined with alcoholic drinking actually ‘tipped me over’

Mrs D: How was it for you when you first quit?

Helen: The early days of sobriety were very difficult! I found it was horrendous getting off the prescription drugs. A nurse in the fellowship advised that I gradually come off over six weeks rather than ‘Cold turkey’. It was difficult to not have ‘pain killer’ to use when I wanted to. Fortunately the desire to drink was taken away from me the night I walked into an AA meeting. I allowed myself to be educated by the wisdom in AA and learned that I could never drink normally. I remember hearing that if I didn’t want to get drunk then I was not to drink. I thought that was so profound!

Mrs D: How did your friends and family react?

Helen: Friends were a bit surprised to hear that I was an alcoholic (I’d hidden it well), some family seemed rather uncomfortable about my getting sober.

Mrs D: Have you ever relapsed?

Helen: I have never relapsed and I’m very grateful for AA as I know I could not have stayed sober on my own

Mrs D: How long did it take for things to calm down for you physically and emotionally?

Helen: It took about a year for things to calm down.

Mrs D: How hard was it getting used to socialising sober?

Helen: I was surprised to learn that I’m not a ‘party animal’. I only liked parties because they were places to drink at! I was also surprised to gradually become aware of the enormous control and influence my alcoholism had over me! So when alcohol dropped from my life I started upon all the projects and interests that had been subsumed till then.

Mrs D: Can you pinpoint any main benefits to your life that have occured since you quit?

Helen: The main benefit of getting sober was freedom; freedom to go out and not get drunk, no hangovers, no shame, no dangerous escapades, no lying to pretend all was well!

Mrs D: Would you do anything differently if you were to go back in time and do it again?

Helen: I don’t think I would do anything differently had I my time again, it was and still is a hell of an adventure!

Mrs D: Anything else you’d like to say?

Helen: For those starting out ; stick with meetings (lots), trust the program, get a sponsor. Accept the love and wisdom.

5 comments

  1. “The main benefit of getting sober was freedom; freedom to go out and not get drunk, no hangovers, no shame, no dangerous escapades, no lying to pretend all was well!” Amen to all that freedom & thanks so much for sharing, Helen! xxoo

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  2. Thank you, Helen, for sharing your sober story with us. I too discovered that I really don’t like parties…they were only a place I could drink. That was totally me. Love reading about someone who has long-term sobriety. Wow!

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  3. That’s so awesome Helen. Freedom to say ‘Yes I can’ instead of ‘No I can’t’ because I’ve been drinking is a biggie for me.

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  4. Thanks Helen for sharing!! I love that you see it as an adventure, sobriety is infinitely more interesting than drinking. Congrats on – holy, just looked again – 29 years of sobriety!!! Warrior! : )

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